Side note, Daniel got engaged last week. Weird? Weird. I'm happy for him, though. The kid is hilarious and handsome and deserves all the happiness in the world. My best wishes to Daniel and his beautiful bride-to-be!
After a weekend of not talking, Wade and I talked on the phone again about what it is that we're doing. I feel like we just had this talk, but apparently we didn't say everything that needed to be said. Here's a pretty basic version of what was said:
Leslie: Wade, things are different and you can't blame it all on being busy. Either you need to start communicating to me what's going on or you need to tell me that this is too much for you so I can forget about you and really move on.
Wade: I'm not ignoring you on purpose, I've been busy, I don't know what to do about this. At all. I guess I decided to take some time to think about things, I just didn't know what to say to you.
Leslie: You have to do something. I'm not going to sit around and wait. And if you need time, tell me, don't just take it. It sucks to be on this end, where I don't know anything.
Wade: I know. I just don't want to hurt you, or the girl that lives here that asked me out. It would be easier to date her, but I want to date you, but you live forever far away. I just don't know what to do.
Leslie: Do what will make you happiest, someone will get hurt less now than later down the line. Seriously consider visiting Idaho. Really, really think about it. In the meantime, don't shut me out. We like each other because we enjoy talking to each other, so if you let fear creep in, we'll lose that and essentially lose everything.
Wade: I'll consider it, really. Don't write me off, keep me as an option. Don't limit yourself, but don't write me off. I need to figure some things out, but I think about you a lot and I want to stay in the running. Thanks for calling me out.
That was basically it. It went more in depth and I feel as though he told me more about how he's feeling about the situation and why he's so mixed up. I also told him a lot of my frustration with everything and why I don't want to just wait around. I'm fine with him going on dates with other girls, I fully intend to date around this semester, but if he's got intentions of actually dating that girl, he needs to tell me. I don't want to have another Tyson situation happen. Wade said he doesn't want to be like Tyson, that I deserve so much more than that. I hope he lives up to what he said.
For now I'm not holding my breath, but I'm not giving up on Wade just yet. Something about him makes me think that something really good could still come from this. We'll see, I s'pose.
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