You know, despite having my meanderings out of my comfort zone with Aaron being utterly destroyed, I have to admit that I feel as though my self confidence has been rejuvenated. This weekend I've walked a little taller, smiled at more boys, and felt prettier. It's some weird psychological mindset that I had to get into and asking Aaron out was the trigger.
I've also been listening to things said in stake conference, general conference, and devotionals. The reoccurring theme is "Stop living in anticipation of things to come, live in the now." It's such a revelation to me, I'm a little baffled. I think I was living with this great anticipation that one day, out of the blue, Mr. Right was going to waltz out of the crowd and then we'd start down the road towards our happily ever after. Now I know that's not how it's supposed to work. I'm not supposed to constantly be on edge, waiting for that moment when my life will begin. I'm forgetting that I'm alive now, that I have things going for me.
It's a great feeling, having this sudden boost in self confidence. I can't quite get over it.
If you stop waiting for it and go out and get what you want you will find it that Mr. Right was there all along.
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